"I dont wanna talk to you anymore "
Count ur child hood friends,the close relationships that you developed as an undergrad, past that stage..
How many ever people that you meet everyday, how many ever people that are there on ur IM or that many ever people that you knw on a message board, say like sulekha,, there are very few people, infact you can count them by hand that remain close to you past the initial buzz.
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Amongst all this there is only select few that you really really care about.
and when one of them says the first line to u..
how would u feel.
I have been guilty of the same crime with my close friends before and one such character really stands out.
Infact had she not had a BF whom she eventually married, I would have made sure I had her.
Every time I used to fight with her, be it me or her that starts it., she would have just half an hr to collect herself back and get back to me as if nothing happened.
In the beginning that used to drive me even mad. But slowly that caught on to me.
How much ever I try to sulk away, she just would not bother any more about it and it dint matter to her if the mistake was hers or mine.
Now that shez married and settled in India, I miss her, but then she isnt wat this post is all about
I have always been hot headed, being the only kid dint help matters either.
It just amazes me how much one can be different and how 'stripped' you feel when you come across a character like that.
Getting back to the first line again..
when one of those select 'few' that I really care about said that that to me,
I again got back to the vikram aur bethal thing
as the saying goes in tamil 'Vedalam marupadiyum murungai maram erithaam'
a reference to the countless no of times that the bethal in that story keeps running away from King Vikram after telling a story..
I again got mad and decided I would never talk to her again..
It took me exactly a couple of days to realise how wrong I was..
This time it was a new group of friends @ work who had just joined last week..
A couple of them had cars and I started riding with them to work...giving a break to my bus routine
I know thatz a forced break to meeting with that black girl that I meet in the bus :)
It so happened that all 3 of them had a meeting that went pretty late into the evening..
and they totally forgot that I was waiting for them as well.
In the end I realised that they left without me and by then it was past 8:00.
I got so mad as usual, and was about to blast them over the fone but somehow restrained myself.
They were almost home when I got them on the fone from work, and was about to ask them to turn back and pick me up.
One of those guys dropped the others, and called me up and said, "I'll comeback and pick u up"
I thought it was just another of those shooting from the mouth instead of the heart thingie, declined and left it at that.
But when I got home later, he was there waiting for me and said " Im really sorry dude. I'll make sure this doesnt happen again"
This from a guy that I have known for not even a week.
And if he could do that, I thought " why cant I be so to the people that I really care about"
I got back to her on the phone and as I had suspected, she was really upset and hurt.
Hopefully I have mended fences with her.
It really gives you a sense of satisfaction when you can set aside differences and talk to people.
It really makes you feel light. like a heavy load has lifted of you.
Its really a wonderful gift, trust me, not a sign of weakness when you can break the ice after a potential conflict.
I believe one should really have lots of guts and self confidence to go ahead and be like that. I hope I can always do this in times of crisis.
Not that I want to be in a crisis all the time..something all of us can do without :-)
PS: not bad...I can write serious stuff too :D
